wasabi, er'body

I haven't been feeling well mentality but that hasn't changed much, what has changed is my output of content.

i have recently been getting into Minecraft, since 1) i havent ever beaten the ender dragon despite having played Minecraft for like 6-7 years, so ive been wanting to do that. 2)i've also been playing around with redstone as i used to be pretty good with redstone back in the day. and 3) i joined 2b2t (the oldest anarchy server in Minecraft history), why?, bc it funny.

i did however had a recent motivation spike and managed to do 3 projects

a 3d pizza box in pico cad

and 2 short stories,

https://www.wattpad.com/1118116824-dress-x-ing

and

https://www.wattpad.com/1116206541-pep-talk

dress crossing is a erofic, for mature audiences only

and pep-talk is a darkfic, which hadles some more mature topics but its not ero like dress xing

i had a lot of fun writing these fics since it was quite liberating and interesting to see where the stories went since i didnt have a clue as to what i was going to write until i started writing them. i have some self nitpicks tho, pep-talks ending was meant to be a twist, but i feel like it kinda fell flat and feels kinda lazy . dress x-ing i feel like had a good balance of detail that was important t the story but i feel like some spots felt kinda cheap and crammed in. other than that i quite like them. i have author's notes in the comments of the wattpad posts if you are interested

ongoing projects:

i havent given up on the aztec calendar and loteria cards but i still dont feel confident in my abilities yet to do things like that.

i did start another work that im trying to put the final details on. it is going to be a liminal space, or at least my interpretation of liminal space. i have been toying with the idea of a liminal video game, a disorienting ,unnerving, video game but i must admit, that is quite a big undertaking so i might save it for another day and slowly build my way up with some more simple games

i am a big fan of tragedy stories, my favorite one being the 18+ shindoL doujin henshin, other wise known as emergence/metamorphosis/177013. I have been toying around with a book idea on and off for about 3 years now. i have writen and rewriten the first pages about 20 times, one time i got about 30 pages in before scaping it . my issue is that since im still an beginner writer, i CANT get the feeling right, it supposed to be a tragedy, one where you feel for the characters and care about them and their struggles but i can't make it...feel right. i feel like sometime i add too much unnecessary detail, kinda like im fluffing up the story, sometimes i feel like i make the characters kinda flat, and im struggling to fins that balance. i want my story to be poten, filled with ONLY the necessary detail but since my mind has a hard time with that when i talk, its a hard habit to avoid. I also feel like i have found a writing style im comfortable with, you can probably see it in the dress xing, it might change tho,idk.

i have 3 videos in the making, a bold a brash hank stamp, a rubiks cube in a jar one, and a popsicle bridge one. the hanko stamp is almost done, it just needs a voice over so im really trying to get used to my voice, and i havent really been motivated to edit videos, it is such a boring task imo, i might end up hiring an editor for it since i now have some more disposable income. the popsicle bridge one isnt done filming because the last assembly is giving me some issues. the rubiks cube one is nowhere NEAR finished. i chose what i think too hard of a challenge for my first time. just the edge assembly is constantly failing, i got some long fish hook pliers but the pieces still slip and slide and its getting quite frustrating. did i mention that i started filming the cube in a bottle video about a year ago, same with the popsicle bridge, the stamp was probably like 3 months ago.

work has been very tiering and has left me with little energy, so its been hard finding the motivation to do a lot of stuff but i'm trying, that all i CAN do. as a Chinese sweatshop owner put it

"all day im fucking busy, only get few money"

any(many) ways, i hope i can continue to make a creativity, and hopefully one day i can make creativities as a job. i hope that ya'll enjoy seeing my creativities