i made a BBS (bulletin board system) site

why? bc i can

about? idk

when? like 2 days ago

where? https://social.anymany.dev/bbs/

what it the purpose of this? not sure

why should i join? to post in there

you're copying _____. no, its just a forum thing

how? i followed this 7 min youtube tutorial

hoe much? FREE, or until i reach the max amount hosting space, might upgrade later if popular

how can i support it? https://www.patreon.com/anymany

what a month it has been, I've been staying busy with work and other stuff, i haven't had much time to do stuff i want but i've been trying

i now have a couple videos in the making but i have one main issue, i HATE editing, I'm really hoping to finish editing one video this weekend when i have time bc im really excited with how it will turn out. i have 2 video ideas that i really want to make. i have the script for one, i just need to record and edit it. the other one was going to be easy but it turns out that i need to learn how to use lambda and other nerd shiz that quite frankly flies over my head but i really hope to finish it .

the only real literature work I remember writing on october is the mufifn man . i re-read it and it's still as funny as i remember it. right now, im working on polishing my stories to participate in the NG anthology so that i can finally get my work published. it's been tough to re-read it bc i skip over some errors bc my brain just corrects them automatically. i do have a couple beta readers helping me which is greatly appreciated.

im planning on moving out soon, pretty excited for that.

ive also been getting into crocheting/ yarn work again recently. i used to do a lot last year around summer-fall, i still got it and i decided to make something meme like

I'm still pretty tired constantly, and i still im not a big fan of waking up in the mornings, im trying to change that but it's tiring. everyday constantly feels very long and mind numbing, it feels like im living in the opposite of dog years...cat years?. 1 day feels like it's as tiring as 7 and i keep doing it day after day, week after week, gets really tiring ngl.

any(many)ways, i hope i can continue to make stuff and hopefully one day i won't feel like this....as much

so things have happened

i actaully havent done many projects, i've been using my days off of mentally unwind and just relax because ik know that i can be really hard on myself(future story plot). i realized this when i had a breakdown the other day at work and when i almost had some others the couple shifts afterwards. i realized that working like this is going to be the reason why i kill myself but i really dont have many options so that sucks :P.

i've also been trying to do some shopping since i often convince myself against buying myself nice things

i did do some writing tho

first up it's blade's work, it is a dark story about struggles with self harm. i wrote it not to promote self harm but to maybe give people a new insight into self harm, you shouln't read it if you're going through shit tho

second is like it was yesterday, this is a story about a guy named quinton reminiscing their friend, in this one i tried to experiment with imagery and metaphors.

in both of these stories, i experimented with inner dialogue, less outward dialogue so practice giving necessary details without making it feel like info dumping but lie a conversation, if you read them, tell me what you think

also some people have told me that they have trouble accessing my wattpad stories so i uploaded them on my website

https://anymany.dev/stories/blades_work/

https://anymany.dev/stories/Like_it_was_yesterday

another thing @cyronix wrote a 18+ little shipost about scooby x shaggy and for some weird reason it just sparked my inspiration and made me write a 18+ part two , THEN he had to comment about making a part 3 so my inspiring me yet again until i wrote a shaggy x scooby x velma 18+ story which is apparently now just a porn thread . so plase dont read if you are under age.

in other news i recently went through a break up and it really hurts, trying not to think about it. i try not to think about things bc im tired of feeling sad, i just want to be happy. im really trying not to do somthing too wreak less now that i dont really have anyone to stop me and knock me back into common sense (not trying to blame them). i feel like i dont really have anyone i can truly trust which sucks but oh well; maybe it'll give me some writing inspiration.

any(many) ways

still not feeling great but i do feel a bit better

progress is still being made on projects.

i have one pixel art project that i've been working on for like 2 months but i cant get the lighting right, it looks very flat.

i have another pixel art project that is going good but it just very tedious, i've experimented with the concept for a while but it takes a lot of time. i think it has a lot of potential to do some illusion type stuff but i need more experimentation.

im trying to figure out how to make the process of adding nodes to my text based adventure game more automatic, i've hear about there being a JSON converter but im still working on it im planning on releasing my "engine" if you can even call it that, open source on my github ,maybe people can do more with it

i recently dug up my old keyboard and man is it loud, i love it. its a metal keyboard with not foam, blue clicky switches and hard plastic key caps. i used it for a couple of days and then went back to using my laptop keyboard. that was a really weird change, not bad but just feels sooooo much different, im going to start writing with that keyboard only

working on another story, in fact im done with it, im just spell checking and looking for beta readers. its about 3 pages long, just a good ol' really dark and kinda fucked up story , just how i like my [my lawyer has advised me to continue this joke no longer]

im also working on compiling all my writing, maybe i can publish a short story book some day. im already at 25 pages, and that's not including haikus, i'm not planning on making money on the book, i just want to have published at least something

i commissioned and artist recently to make me a cover for one of my stories. its a cover for my dress x-ing story

im really happy with how it looks, this drawing was made by asskoh on twitter btw

any(many) ways, that's all i have for now, hope ya'll continue to enjoy my stuff

first and foremost, my site IS back up, and it should be good to go for 5 years

big thanks to @Gimmick here and espen on stack overflow for helping me but my game base is finally done. I used twine to make the v1 of it, it did ok for the prototype but it didn't fit the category of "only one button, no mouse" so i made a little 'engine' that allows me to do just that. now the issue is that, i have to add all the pages, and all the little detail by hand ...only 183 pages. luckily, twine has a proofreading copy that list out all the pages but its going to be beyond tedious so i might not finish it for a while. especially because of 2 things

1) things haven't been going well and im not in a very good place mentally. my motivation is about non-excitant and im lucky to even get out of bed.

2) i haven't had a day off in 13 days. i technically had A day off but i had to do so much that i was just as tired as if it was a work day. i wont have the change to have one for another 3 days. basically, work has just been killing me and i think it will be the death of me. if i dont make a new post in a week, then you'll know why

one thing going for me is that making stuff distracts me from things but my attention span has been decreasing

i have some other artwork unfinished, might work on those at some point

I'm thinking of seeing a psychiatrist, but then again, not everything can be solved by a pill, or at least solved in a positive way. i think most of my issues require more than a pill.

im working really hard like people always told me to, but now im always tired and sad, looking for ways to cope. i was really hoping things would have gotten better.feel like im between a rock and a hard place

i always hear people tell me "just hold on, it gets better" or stuff like that, honestly, my arm is getting pretty tired from holding on.

I also wrote some short-sih stories if you haven't checked them out, they're in my wattpad, linked in my profile, read them, dont, idc

any(many)ways ,i'll update ya'll ig

wasabi errrrrrrrrrrrbody

so my website IS "down", i forgot to renew my SSL certificate(the thing that give me the "https' aka the little lock icon)

now, i DON'T collect ANY(many) information. i dont have any cookies or data trackers. HOWEVER, .dev TLD/ sites NEED ssl for whatever fucking reason. im working on it right now, should have it back up by tonight or tomorrow

so i really want to participate in this 4 day game jam, it really is placed at the worse time for me.

its placed in the days where im super busy at work so i have VERY little time to do anything, gonna pull like 2 all nighters, especially since i found out about it a day later so that put me at a real disadvantage. it also doesnt help that im doing things from scratch since i cant find a single program that will do what i want

best case scenario, i win the $50 which will pay for my supply of energy drinks, worse case scenario, i loose a bunch of sleep that it severely affects my work performance and a lose money from the aforementioned canned energy. either way, i'll end up exhausted so might as well give it a try

wasabi, er'body

I haven't been feeling well mentality but that hasn't changed much, what has changed is my output of content.

i have recently been getting into Minecraft, since 1) i havent ever beaten the ender dragon despite having played Minecraft for like 6-7 years, so ive been wanting to do that. 2)i've also been playing around with redstone as i used to be pretty good with redstone back in the day. and 3) i joined 2b2t (the oldest anarchy server in Minecraft history), why?, bc it funny.

i did however had a recent motivation spike and managed to do 3 projects

a 3d pizza box in pico cad

and 2 short stories,

https://www.wattpad.com/1118116824-dress-x-ing

and

https://www.wattpad.com/1116206541-pep-talk

dress crossing is a erofic, for mature audiences only

and pep-talk is a darkfic, which hadles some more mature topics but its not ero like dress xing

i had a lot of fun writing these fics since it was quite liberating and interesting to see where the stories went since i didnt have a clue as to what i was going to write until i started writing them. i have some self nitpicks tho, pep-talks ending was meant to be a twist, but i feel like it kinda fell flat and feels kinda lazy . dress x-ing i feel like had a good balance of detail that was important t the story but i feel like some spots felt kinda cheap and crammed in. other than that i quite like them. i have author's notes in the comments of the wattpad posts if you are interested

ongoing projects:

i havent given up on the aztec calendar and loteria cards but i still dont feel confident in my abilities yet to do things like that.

i did start another work that im trying to put the final details on. it is going to be a liminal space, or at least my interpretation of liminal space. i have been toying with the idea of a liminal video game, a disorienting ,unnerving, video game but i must admit, that is quite a big undertaking so i might save it for another day and slowly build my way up with some more simple games

i am a big fan of tragedy stories, my favorite one being the 18+ shindoL doujin henshin, other wise known as emergence/metamorphosis/177013. I have been toying around with a book idea on and off for about 3 years now. i have writen and rewriten the first pages about 20 times, one time i got about 30 pages in before scaping it . my issue is that since im still an beginner writer, i CANT get the feeling right, it supposed to be a tragedy, one where you feel for the characters and care about them and their struggles but i can't make it...feel right. i feel like sometime i add too much unnecessary detail, kinda like im fluffing up the story, sometimes i feel like i make the characters kinda flat, and im struggling to fins that balance. i want my story to be poten, filled with ONLY the necessary detail but since my mind has a hard time with that when i talk, its a hard habit to avoid. I also feel like i have found a writing style im comfortable with, you can probably see it in the dress xing, it might change tho,idk.

i have 3 videos in the making, a bold a brash hank stamp, a rubiks cube in a jar one, and a popsicle bridge one. the hanko stamp is almost done, it just needs a voice over so im really trying to get used to my voice, and i havent really been motivated to edit videos, it is such a boring task imo, i might end up hiring an editor for it since i now have some more disposable income. the popsicle bridge one isnt done filming because the last assembly is giving me some issues. the rubiks cube one is nowhere NEAR finished. i chose what i think too hard of a challenge for my first time. just the edge assembly is constantly failing, i got some long fish hook pliers but the pieces still slip and slide and its getting quite frustrating. did i mention that i started filming the cube in a bottle video about a year ago, same with the popsicle bridge, the stamp was probably like 3 months ago.

work has been very tiering and has left me with little energy, so its been hard finding the motivation to do a lot of stuff but i'm trying, that all i CAN do. as a Chinese sweatshop owner put it

"all day im fucking busy, only get few money"

any(many) ways, i hope i can continue to make a creativity, and hopefully one day i can make creativities as a job. i hope that ya'll enjoy seeing my creativities

right now ive been working with the nekomancers with the transcription and translation of the Shimoneta light novels.

i've also wanted to have at least of all of the things i can make on NG and i have audio and games left, still an absolute noob at music but im not a COMPLETE noob in coding so right now im making a game

its going to be a very simple game that i may update. it's nowhere near complete and itll probably take me a month at best to complete it. im writing prettymuch everything from scratch to wipe the dust off of my mind. stuff like haxe flixel, pico 8, ren py, etc are off the tables, just pure raw JavaScript, no jQuery(bc i dont know it).

i've also been writing a book, i started a concept about 2-3 years aog but the more i have sat on it, the more i have pinpoint what i want in the story, ive rewritten the frist chapter like 4-5 times bc i think it sound pretty cheese although i am fully prepared to admit that it'll probably turn out like shit since it is my first and im going into it pretty blindly

i also got NES tetris,which im shit at, because i play a lot of tetris 99, once i get a bit better im thinkg about uploading some gameplay on my youtube chanel

speaking of youtube, i have like 2 videos im working on editing, its taken me a while bc im dogshit at editing

i noticed something about myself, i go into a lot of things pretty blindly and flop a lot, i think its because i really like the learning process of discovering things by myself

so, i finished my tetris animation and whe i did, was taken down. i checked it out to it just being blamed which it very well could be so at the end of these updates im going to the description of it since i think it is intresting and spent a lot of time writing any(many)ways. it turns out it was removed by a [REDACTED] because they thought it was straight up gameplay lol. i find it funny and kinda encouraging ? it means i did such a good job with the animation that i was confused for the real thing.

in other news, i wrote a short (400 word) meme story. i dont think NG is the best place to host it since it doesnt really have a section for it (to my knowledge) so i made a wattpad account and posted it there, youre welcome to read it here

im want to get my site up and running so i can host ALL my stuff there and i wont have to worry about geting it removed, a site going down, site nor really having a section for it, or ads . the reason why i stopped working on it is because i encountered a CORS error(if enyone knows anything about that DM me) and i fount it so complex that i just stopped. i do want to see it complete, i think yall will like, an if yall dont then at least i will

rn im working on the font but its taking a while to find a good FREE font making thing.

ive put the aztec calendar, the cards, and the mexican bingo to the side for now, I DO want to complete it but i want to maybe work on other things for a little bit,idk tho, im really liking pixel art

i got a mic so i'll be posting some videos on my youtube chanel so sub(or dont) if you want see those

that's all i have for now